Monday, October 20, 2008

I Marvel

I marvel at the thought of where my life is and where it used to be...

We wake at 5 AM (oh yeah, you read that right - people without kids, LOVE that 7 AM alarm clock :D) we eat at 7:30, we take a nap, we get out of the house, do some dishes, do some laundry, finally hit the sack and yes... wake up and do it all again the next day.

The thing is, I just love it. It is an indescribable love. It is not like I love doing stuff around the house, but it is the fact that this IS my job.

Sometimes, I look around and get a little jealous that I can't re-decorate my house b/c we no longer have 2 incomes, but really, who needs that stuff. I have a roof, a tivo and great friends and family. Pretty much I'm good.

I saw this book the other day that said, Nap Time is the New Happy Hour, and I just burst out laughing. Then I looked at myself in the mirror. Flat shoes, hair a wreck, spit-up on my shoulder, and glasses askew. Then I looked at my little man and Poof! I didn't care.

I look back at myself and I used to be so vain, so "involved" with my image. Now, I could give a rats ass. My priority is clean diapers, a clean house, a happy hubs and good nights rest.

It is just so bizarre how in mere seconds your life can go from "what can I do for myself today" to "how can I help that little person today."

I remember lying in the hospital bed, pale as a ghost, shaking uncontrollably, and only worrying about feeding my little man. It is like God switches a flip in your head and says, YOU no longer count (as much), that little thing you just spent 9 hours (or 2o minutes in my case) popping out, is your new world.

Now I know how mothers get so wrapped up in their children it takes over their lives. I used to think that about people. But, truthfully, maybe they have so much love, so much bursting-at-the-seams-love, that they just want to talk about it with everyone they come in contact with?

Sometimes, I just have to sit back and marvel at where I was and where I am.



d.a.r. said...

That is a really stellar place to be at. You are such an awesome mom!

Sarah said...

aww that is so great that you can be thankful for the blessings you have as they are happening! I have said it once and I will say it again-that is the true meaning of being blessed

Sweetassbabs said...

Perfectly worded. I use to think the same things and now I don't care to much about the way I look or dress. Like you said clean, happy baby....happy hubby, clean house, some solid sleep and all is well in the world. I love being a mommy and I think I could talk for hours about my baby.....Ahhh I have become that lady that can talk of nothing else and I love it. Oh and by the way 20 minutes popping that kid out!!? I am so jealous!! 2 hours for me.

HM said...

Being a mom is really really cool! I always try to keep a piece of myself and I usually do.

However I love my days with my son. I have SO much fun with him!

And I strongly believe there is no reason your son can't be a part of your life too, instead of you always being a part of his. Does that make since?

You are a great Mommy and gave birth to one of the cutest kids I've ever seen!

Derek & Shanna said...

I don't know if it because I am 30 weeks pregnant or just really emotional (probably both), but I cried when I read your entry about being a mom. I can't wait to be there!! You are doing are amazing job of being a mother.


Katelin said...

aw what a sweet post andrea, you definitely sound like one amazing mom. :)

Jessica said...

that was such a beautiful post!

thatShortChick said...

aaaww!!! i could completely understand what you mean with this post. it made my heart swell.

p.s. thanks so much for stopping by my blog!

Nanette said...

I'm so happy you've chosen to share your journey with us. It's been great to read, especially as I embark on my own.